Kamis, 06 Maret 2008

nappa jadi bgini ? ?

my bestie says : "lo tuh slalu bgini d nne ! udh gw bilang kan ma lo . . kalo sayang orang tu stengah2 aja , jgn tulus2 bgd . . ujung2'a lo disakitin lagi kann ? gw heran d . . tulus bgd sii lo sm dy ? ? dan herannya lagi napa lo disakitin molo si . . ? udee . kalo mo nangis , nangis aja k gw"

if i could change my feeling , i would do it . but what can i do ? gw gabisa apaapa . . bginila gw kalo udah trlanjur sayang ma orang . jangan salahin gw kalo gw sayang'a awet , lama , tulus , apaadanya . .
bawaannwa pengen nangis mulu blakangan ni , muram , suram , jelek d muka gw klu lg inged goriila !

eiyah , gw ada lagu bwd goriila , bwad yg pgn tau gmana lagunya tnya aj k gw , ntar gw nyanyiin d ! tapi maap yah klu ntar nyanyi'a sambil nangis ! ! nih gw kasi liriknyah !


. Your Guardian Angel - The Red Jumpsuits Apparatus .

when i see your smile
tears runs down my face
i can't replace . .
and now that i'm strong i have figured out
how this world turns cold n it's break through my soul
and i know i'll find deep inside me i can be the one

i will never let you fall
i'll stand up for you forever
i'll be there for you through it all
even if saving you sends me to heaven

seasons are changing
waves are crushing
stars are falling
all for us
days grow longer
nights grow shorter
i can show you i'll be the one

i will never let you fall
i'll stand up for you forever
i'll be there for you through it all
even if saving you sends me to heaven

coz you're my . . you're my . . my . .
my true love
my whole heart
please don't throw that away
coz i'm here for yoo . . !
please don't walk awaaay . . !
please tell me you'll staaay . . !

use me as you will
pull my strings just for a thrill
and i know i'll be okay
through my skies are turning grey

i will never let you fall
i'll stand up for you forever
i'll be there for you through it all
EVEN IF SAVING YOU SENDS ME TO HEAVEN

Selasa, 04 Maret 2008

i'll let you go , but never let you be my past . .

gw broken bneran kli ini . . sakiid bgd rasanyah . . .

kmaren pas tgl 22 feb gw mao nyatain perasaan gw . ternyata gw gaberani , akhir'a gw nyatain pas tgl 23 lewad sms . eh dy blz cm 'y y y , ok d .'
gw pikir everything's under my control [jah ! bhsa lu nyed !] .
pas tanggal 24 gw lg duduk2 di matras di dpan ruang guru brg kk'a monyett bodohh dan melacur [melakukan curhatt] . pas gw lg kekantin , sii goriila nyamperin kk'a monyett bodohh . gw nglyat , tp gw diem aj . . purapura gatau . pas gorila dah cabud , gw gananya apaapa . . pas tgl 25'a tu br gw nanya ma kk'a monyett bodohh . . dan gw pun melacur lagi di lab fisikah smpe jam 7mlm . kk'a monyett bodohh [kmb] blg bgini . .

goriila [g] : sii anne ngomong apa sama lo ?
kmb : iyaa , dy nyatain prasaan dy k lo kan . lo ko blz'a singkat bgd si ?
g : yaa , abz'a sii anne blz'a lm bgd sii . [demi Tuhan ! gw cm bwad dy nunggu 10mnt . . dlu ! dy bwad gw nunggu 2jam ! !]
kmb : ohh . . .
g : lagipula , gamungkin lah gw jadian sm sesama ank 38 . blakangan kn PMR lg bnyk lomba , gw tkud sii anne jd gakonsen . lgpl , gw udah pnya ce ko . . [shock bgd gw denger'a ! ! bneran ! !]
kmb : hahh ? ? anak manna ?
g : knalan di ayodance . [mampuss ! mkin shock gw . . ]

ga terimaa gw dibandingin ma ce knalan di ayodance ! mnding gw ! dah ktauan ! dah jelas ! gw sayang dy ! gw tulus m dy ! gw stia ttp sayang dy wlw dah 7bln lewat ! gw sayang dy apa adanya ! gw gaakan nyakitin dy ! gw relaaa disakitin dmi dy ! ! gw relaa . . . ! ! gw lebi dari apapun yg bisa dy bandingin ! !
knapa dy blg gituu . . . ? ? ! jahad bgd sii !

tapii , namanya jugga sayang . . orang bisa mlakukan halhal bodoh klo sdg jtuh cinta . . termasukk . . masii sayang dya gapeduli sesakit apapun dy udh nyakitin gw . . gw masii sayang dy , gw masii tulus sm dy , syg dy apa ada'a , gw masii mnunggu hati dy . . walaw gw gaakan gnggu dy lgy . gw gaakan dketin dy lagi . biarin gw sndiri yg rasain sakitnya , perihnya , indahnya , dukanya . . gapapa . cz dy prnah ngasi harihari terindah dalam idup gw . .

kalo goriila baca [woo . . . ngarepp ! ! boodd . . . doo] gw pgn lo tw k . .
"gw bkn tipe org yg suka , tyuz nglupain . lo tw udh selama apa gw sayang sm lo . kalopun lo gabisa ngebales prasaan gw , gw gaakan maksa . as long as you're happy , i'll b happy 4 u . . sounds empty , but i know you know it's true . those heartbeats , those dreams , those smiles . . still exist"

Minggu, 17 Februari 2008

it's a sweet life ! [knangan brsama GORIILA di 6o]

hri ni gw senengsenengseneng bgd . gw bisa sharian brg gorila cz ad lomba PMR di 6o .
trnyata qt masingmasing sbuk ndiri . gw sibuk bwd lomba PP yg lamanya buju busedd smntara dy sbuk reunian . . tapi gapapalah .
ujung2nya gw bareng dy sharian . .

pas pagipagi : dy nitip tasnya dy k gw dgn gaya iiank sweet [jah ! bwd elu ma dy sweet mollo nne !]
pas pngumuman pmenang : gw lgy chat n dy nglyad dr blakang gw ngpain . hhaa XD . ge'er akh gw ! tapi bneran ko ! tyuz qt bcanda2 gilla bgetto . .
pas udh slese : ank2 jaksel padda ngmpul dollo , bkin lingkeran n bdoa + bsykur brg2 , dy disebelah gw , pas doa qt smwa pgangan tgn , eh dy mgang tgn gw . . hhwaaa . . . ! ppeeessshhh . . muka gw lgsg merah .
pas di pasming : gw gt turun dr bus dilmpar jket dy k kpala gw , dy blg apaaaa getto , gw gadenger , yg gw dnger byar gw kaga keujanan n andin ngedipngedip k gw . . gw sneng dy care m gw .

poko'a gw sneng lla jdul'a hr ni , wlw gw gajadi jdyn m dy . hhaa XD . mavv iia fans stia gw . . mavv , gw gasempat nembak dy , gw terlalu menikmati saatsaat gw brsama dy yg langka . .
^^

PP jwara 3 ? ! amiin .

hari nii gw lomba PMR di 6o . gw dr awall udh pesimis ttu bkal kallah . .
trnyatta . . ? ?
gw , andin , n fahmi jwara 3 untk PP . jantungan gw pas pngumuman . . sumpah ! gw gangira bkal mng .
dan sialnya , sharian ntu gw gamaen lgsg , cm jd korban mollo n andin yg jdi pnolong . .
gw jdi mrasa gaberguna bgd .

tpi stela gw pikirpikir lgy hrus'a gw brsyukur bs mnang . cz ni adl piala yg pertama bwd PMR SMAN 38 . . caiioo PMR 38 ! tnjukin klu qt exis , ebadd n pnya otak . . !

^^

Senin, 11 Februari 2008

bu'as = sweet dream dii klass

gw ngantukk
gw ngantukk
gw ngantukk
gw ngantukk
gw ngantukk

hadooh , nii org bhasa'a jaman purba bgd ! amid2 .
'banjir bisa TERCIPTA karena . . .'
'bagaimana APABILA kamu . . .'
'APAKAH masih ada kelompok yang BELUM TAMPIL . . .'
'apakah betul BEGITU ?'


. ampunn .

pdahal bru jugga kmaren gw tobaatt , dah dii kasii cobaan amiid2 bginni . .
. yya tuhann .
ampunilla dossa2 saiia , saiia tidda sngaja ko !

. . gw rassa bel ntar jm 9 gw udh kga brnyawa lgy . .

Sabtu, 09 Februari 2008

CIVITA : horror.kompakk.cacadd[closing part]

thx bwd nak2 "famrox 38" angk07-08 .

. ICHA DORRA[my room mate yg mw mlakukan dossa brg2 m gw ^^]
. FERRA [slah stu tmend gw yg palling ccadd wkt nyanyi lagu 'boneka cantiiik . . dari indiiiaa' dgn swarra org keinjek2+kjepit]
. RHEA [mba ketu yg superr sabarr ngbimbing nak2 'famrox 38']
. CICI LINA [mba wakil 'famrox 38' dii OSIS , thx udh mw jujurr m qt n bkin 'famrox 38' mkin complex , qt pduli m lo ko]
. TIA [walo diem bkan brarti smbong yee ? thx udh mw dgrin curhatan gw]
. LIVIA [sii pmikirr sjati . livia ttu diem gr2 mkir taaoo ! iy kann liv?]
. DESFIRA [d leader yg jaggo abiis , thx udh bs ngbimbing qt k arh yg bner]
. ICHA [gw sukka ko gaya lebay n knyol lo ! ga ush mkirin ap kta org yg ga suka ma candaan lo , sirikk ajh mrekka !]
. SONIA [d sexy girl yg 'katanya' mo tobat plg dr retret . gw ttp sukka gayya lo ! dr sjak TK sun !]
. RIBKA [kk gw yang cadass , bae , pinterr , n care bgd m gw . . thx y k !]
. MICHAEL [sii ketu pnitia yg dmen bgd blg slow . jgn jutek2 lgy yahh ! ]
. NELLA [class mate gw yg suka mnggila brg fera , qt sm2 sling sirikk y !]
. SEPTI [tmen curhatt gw pas sesii refleksii dirri . ssstt . qt sm2 jg rhasia yahh !]
. ARI [gw ngertii ko lo ska hiper , n jujurr ! gw lebii ska dri lo yg trbuka , critta2 m gw , n cplas-cplos-asall]
. YOHAN [lo GANTENG ! sumpahh lo ganteng ! jdi dri lo ap ad'a ajh di dpan gw n 'famrox 38' , gw ngrti ko . igd semboyan qt 'slek dollo byar kga toss !]
. GURRU2 [mavv pa bu ! qt cella , qt cacii-makii , qt repotiin . thx udh ngbimbing anne smpe kbntuk jd pribadi seorang kristiani yg pass sma k'ignan qt smw . .]

. FAMROX 38 .
. family rohkris x 38 .

CIVITA : horror.kompakk.cacadd[part.2]

2 bgundal gilla[baca : nella-ferra] mulaii nakut2in ank2 , nella-dgn rambut pnjangnya-nakut2in dgn purra2 jdy kuntilanakk , ferra-dgn bodii cungkringnya-nakut2in ank2 ngikutin saw , adegan yg pmbunuhnya ngacung2in piso n sumpahh ! bygn ferra ttu seremm bgd ! trpaksa gw menganiaya ttu 2bgundal u/ mnghntikan aksi-menyeramkann-mencekamm mreka .

karena emg sifat dasarr ce gmpg tkud , jadiila gw dan k12 tmend gw tdur dlm stu kamarr yg cuma punya 4kasurr n size'a yg bwd ndirri . emg k'dgr'an gilla sii , tp yg nm'a org k'tkutan pastii bwaan'a horror .
tpi gw bkan tipe org yg bissa tdur dgn 5org diiskitar gw .

akhr'a skitar jamm 11an gw , nella , icha , fera , n septi mmtuskan u/ ngmbil pizza-nan-lezatt yg gw tngglkan dii kmarr gw yg konon kta'a HORROR .
stella ttu pizza brhsil gw slamattkann dri kamarr gw yg horror , gw-nella-icha-ferra-n septi punn mnikmatti ttu mkanan langka-di-civitta , pdhl jlas dilarang makan slain jam makan n slain di rwang makan , dan qt pewe ajh mkan di ruang tgh tpat d dpan kamarr bu tiar n bu dianne .
stella makann , qt menginvasi kamarr ank co n maiin dsonno mp jm stgh 2 .
n gw pun mlanjutkann tidur gw di kamarr nella-ferra , bkan di kmar gw yg HORROR .

pgi'a mpe pulang cm diisi acr cramahh , n tyuz trang , gw pewe bgd hr ntu .

walaw retret nii ga gittu mngubah dri gw , tp brkesan bgd bwd gw .

CIVITA : horror.kompakk.cacadd[part.1]

tgl o9-1o jan 2oo8 gw retret k civita brg ank2 rohkriss .
gto smpe civitta gw lgsg disodorinn krtas jadwall kgiatan slama dii civita , gw-yg udh 2x k civita-lgsg brtindak sbg 'civita-expert' . daaan , sumpahh ! gw kcewa brat ! ga ad wkt bebas , yg ad cm cerramahh2 smw , pdhl s'igd gw dii civita ntu ad games , rnungan ortu , dll . lah ini ! kga ad games sma skali ! daan , ada stu acr yg ga ada di jadwal n bkin gw kcewa bgd ,ga ad acra rnungan bwd ortu , klwarga , n skitarr . gw kcwa bgd acr ntu kga ad , swal'a aph ? dr 2x klii gw k civitta , gw bnerr2 bruba gr2 acr ntu .
akhirnya , gw dn ank2 mnta ttu acr dslipin , akhrnya acra itu punn ada , walo konsep'a bda jawh sma yg kmarenn2 .

. . . pas ntu acra rnungan . . .
qt du2k bdua2 dii kapel n salling sharing . sumppah ! walo konsep acr'a bda jauh dr yg gw pgn , tpi gw enjoy bgd . .
dsittu gw tw ap aj sfat2 gw yg mngganggu orla , n gw jdy lebi terbuka .
jujurr , dsittu gw nangiss , gw jujurr s'jujurrnyah ma pasangan gw-septi x4-n stella ntu hatii gw rsa'a plong bgd ! gw ngrassa bhw gw udh dilahirkan lgy sbagai manusia barru .
gra2 ntu acra qt mkin dket , pass qt lgy asiik2nyah mw tdur n parteh dii kamarr brsama room mate gw-icha x6-a.k.a mkan pizza-medium-toping sosis-american favorite , LAMPU MATI TIBA2 ! ! !
gw panik ! sumpahh ! gw panik !
and then . . . . .
trjadi sswatu . . .

. to be continued .